Window Shopping and Whiny Bologna
I want to be the kind of person who folds her clothes, who keeps a clean house, who doesn’t have trouble keeping up with the family.
I want to be the kind of person who respects people, and who earns the respect of others.
I would like to be effective, intelligent, and resourceful.
I want clear skin and sharp features.
I want I want I want.
What do I need?
Food. Exercise. Home. Creative outlets. Intellectual stimulation. Freedom of expression.
Not much, really.
What the hell am I even saying? I dont even know. Im too exhausted to make any sense.
Must keep working, must try not to destroy life worked so hard to build…
It’s the biggest misconception that focusing energy outside of what makes you happy, will make you happy by proxy of what it provides you. A stable, safe home full of food and an Internet connection? Hah. Watch life slip through your fingers day by day.
Sometimes I just don’t care.